Mar 31, 2008

"What's your name?"

Ahhh, the catch phrase. This is the single most annoying thing you child says over and over and over and over and over. It's the phrase you repeat years after they have grown past it; Christopher's was "I can stand on one foot". He said that when he was 4, any time he felt it was too quiet, you know because silence to kids is an opportunity to annoy. Even though he is now 6, Bobby and I will sometimes lovingly look at each other and utter the annoying "I can stand on one foot" just to make the other one giggle.

Well, thanks to a segment on Noggin, a pre-school children's channel, Matthew has picked up the very pleasant question, "what is your name?" and will ask us at least 1,390,874 times a day. "Hey Mommy, what is your name?" "My name is Ima Going Crazy Matthew, what is yours?"

So this morning, in true Matthew fashion, within I would say 5 minutes of waking, this little conversation takes place:

Matthew: "Mommy, what is your name?"
Me: "Mommy"
Matthew: "No, your name BOOBS!"
Me: "What??"
Matthew: "Booooooobs"
Me: giggling now "did you say boots?"
Matthew: "Yes! Boots! And my name Dora" He then runs off to go play.

I have to say, normally he annunciates 'Boots' just fine, apparently his tongue had not woken up yet.

So, what's your name??

Mar 30, 2008

Pregnancy nesting, brought to you by Home Depot

Last night I was talking to a friend in IMs about my lack of energy to clean my house, and took some pictures of my horrible messy house to share with her, since she was saying she has not been cleaning due to a newborn, toddler, and preschooler... sheesh, what excuse is THAT! (Joking of course, she has more reason than I do).

So last night I got inspired to put a shelf in Matthew's closet, but the shelf I had was about 6 inches too tall, so I found the perfect one at Home Depot's website and decided tomorrow we would go get it... thinking I could get his closet looking better and then sit my ass on the couch and relax the rest of the day feeling accomplished enough with cleaning an ENTIRE closet.

Matthew Closet Before
So here is the before, you may not be able to tell but I *did* have a four compartment cart in there that I put his blankets in and on. Of course you probably CANNOT tell because he tore it down and all that is left is the frame and of course the blankets.

Matthew Closet After
Here is the after, I actually was able to put everything in the before shot on one shelf! I used the others to empty two drawers of Sophie's dresser, boxes from the other side of the closet, and a ton of stuff from my room!

Ok, so since we are on the subject of the corner o' baby stuff in my room I will show you the before and afters of it:

Master Corner before
This is all the crap I had in there before. Swing, bed, clothes, fabric, diaper bag, baby book, etc.

Master Corner After
And this is all that is left, but only because they are two boxes of cloth diapers (clean of course) that I need to wash before I can put them away, and then also my Hypnobabies home learning package box that I need to find another home for, and some bags of baby magazines I need to go through and my sarong I need to wash for birthing day.

Matthew Closet Left After
Here is the after of where those big boxes ended up, this side used to be crammed full with more clothes, blankets, and the crib (which now nicely fits in the closet behind the new shelf and a couple rails in this side).

Ok, so I could not start on the closet and leave his room looking like the disaster it was, so I started picking up and organizing his toys, here is what I did with his "cubby" shelf:

Matthew Cubby Before
The before of course, yikes!

Matthew Cubby After
And the after, much better!

Moving onto his shelf:

Matthew Shelf Before
Need I even tell you this is the before?

Matthew Shelf After
And the after.

Matthew Bed Before
His bed, before.

Matthew Bed After
And after.

Matthew Dresser Before
This is the changing table & Sophia's dresser, before.

Matthew Room After
And the changing table afterwards.

And some misc after pics, because a clean room is so much more fun to take pics of:

Matthew Dresser After
His dresser & his diaper stash.

Matthew Shoes After
And his shoes on the back of his door.

Another project I have been putting off is my freaking NASTY toilet seat. I took a belly pic with my toilet seat up and could not use them because the underside of my seat had been scrubbed so much the paint was coming off, so it was stained REALLY bad from anytime anyone was sick (think splatter, EWWWWWW!) Here is a tiny before, since it is so so bad.

Nasty Toilet
Gross, gross, gross, GROSS! Can you believe a new seat was only $10? Had I known this, I would have replaced it when we moved in! I seriously think the old owners cleaned the seats with turpentine, the other bathroom needs a new seat as well (of course I notice this AFTER we get home with the first seat).

Bathroom Toilet Before
Another before. And no, we did not paint, it was the only room in the house that was not white when we moved in.

Bathroom Toilet After
And here is the toilet after, amazing how much $10 can make over a bathroom!

Much like the new shelf in Matthew's room inspired me to clean the room, the toilet seat accomplished the same thing.

Bathroom Candles Before
This is the right side of my bathroom vanity before.

Bathroom Candles After
And after.

Bathroom Cabinet Before
Center part of my vanity before.

Bathroom Cupboard After

Bathroom Sink Before
Sink before.

Bathroom Sink After
The sink after, not TOO much of a change there.

I also vacuumed my entire upstairs, even my bathroom because the jackass designer of this house thinks bathrooms should be carpeted, gag. I also cleaned the upper shelves in my walk in closet where I keep the curtains for my family room I need to put back up, and also the shelf where I am keeping all my pre-pregnancy jeans. All in all, this 'makeover' cost a total of $70, $50 for the shelf, $10 for the toilet seat and the final $10 was for zip-ties and tax. The zip ties are for redneck baby-proofing, to make sure she crib and shelf is secured to the wall. I also had a ton of help from Austin and Christopher (and a little from Bobby, who claimed he wanted no part of my "wicked shenanigans") and between 4-6 hours of time. We got one box together of items to donate to Goodwill when I hit the drive through on Thursday after my prenatal appointment, and one large garbage bag of garbage. I also got about three arm fulls of toys to add to his cubby from his toy box in the family room, which was getting too full to clothes. So two rooms down, nine rooms to go!!

Mar 29, 2008

Ode to Hormones and Dreams

I love it when you have a dream that is so realistic, that when you wake, you almost feel as if you are still in the dream.

Last night I had a dream about World of Warcraft, and online multi-player role playing game. I occasionally play, but Bobby spend most of his free time playing. Sometime this is an issue with me, sometimes not because he has always put us first when we need him. The dream though, really brought out my anger and frustration and blew them out of proportion. I woke up feeling abandon, neglected and unloved.

When I heard Matthew playing in the hall, I called him into my bed to cuddle me to make me feel better. Well, being that he is all of three years old, he was not interested in stroking my broken ego. I got maybe 2 minutes of being allowed to hold him before he was off again to conquer bigger and better tasks.

Now that I have had an outlet to vent I am starting to shake the feelings I had in the dream, but some of them are not entirely false, just blown way out of proportion. I look forward to again only having realistic carryover a few times a year, not a few times a month like I do when I am pregnant, they are very frustrating because they feel real, but I know they are not real.

Mar 27, 2008

Hooray for a head down baby!!

Well, like I mentioned in my March 21st post, I have been taking measures to turn this little poopsie into a vertex (head down) position. One thing I did not mention, is that when I was doing my exercises to turn baby Sophie, one of the things I did was use my hypnobabies to get deep into hypnosis and envisioned her turning. That same night, I had the most vivid dream and I woke up Saturday telling Bobby I felt she had moved into a head-down position, but I did not want to get my hopes up until I knew for sure. So today when I had my ultrasound I was VERY excited to see a butt where her head had been last week! YAY! This is just one less thing I need to worry about.

In the last few weeks I will begin making sure she is in the optimum fetal position using the techniques on the Spinning Babies website.

Other than that, everything else was normal, blood pressure was great, still no weight gain, non-stress test was perfect, and everything looked wonderful in the biophysical profile. She is still stubborn, but she eventually cooperates and meets her movement requirements, does her practice breathing, and lets the tech see any vital organs. As a perk, I am reminded on a weekly basis this baby really is a girl, so maybe I will actually believe it by the time she is born.

Mar 26, 2008

30w5d Belly pic

So I decided to take another belly picture since it has been one week since my last one and I really feel like I have "popped" this week. Hopefully it is a result from a chance in position (specifically vertex, not breech), but we won't know that until tomorrow, and even if she is head down, it does not mean in the next 8 weeks she won't keep flipping back and forth, she has time.


Austin took this picture, so no bathroom lighting, no blurry pic, and no dirty mirror this time... sorry guys! ;)

A lot happened this week, I started my 5th and final 2 week block of my hypnobabies classes, until delivery I will do a maintenance schedule of listening to the tracks I listened to earlier in my courses. I am feeling confident and excited for my quick and easy birthing day :)

I also met with my doula for my prenatal visit, man I love her! We discussed all of my concerns about breech, GD, delivery, a birth plan, etc. I will meet with her again next month and then again when I need her for the delivery.... yay!!

Lilypie Expecting a baby PicLilypie Expecting a baby Ticker

Mar 21, 2008

30 week prenatal

29w5d and I had my weekly ultrasound (biophysical profile), midwife consult, and non-stress test yesterday.

Everything looked good, no pictures to share this time though. The baby is still breech, but my midwife said she is not concerned and won't be until 36 weeks. I did talk to her about my options though, just in case, and it looks like I have three, none great though.

A) Schedule a c-section.... yeah, no way, not going to happen

B) Try to turn her myself with exercises, chiropractic care, and other alternative methods I seek out myself, and then hope when I go into labor she is vertex (head down), if she is not, c-section.... not all that thrilled about this one either, but better than the first

C) At 38 weeks schedule an external version with the obstetrician with an epidural and automatic induction at the hospital. This has only a 50-60% success rate and if she does not flip I will need a c-section... and it also guarantees an early baby plus the induction and epidural I want to avoid, with a VERY high chance of needing a c-section.... again, I am less than thrilled with this option too, but probably the choice I would make in combination with choice B

So, in the meantime I have been doing my research on how to spin this baby and encourage her into the correct position. I have also been using my hypnobabies to visualize her turning and staying in an optimal position. I also did some pelvic tilts, flashlight therapy, hot/cold therapy, played her some soft music in my ipod while I elevated my hips and talked to her, telling her it was time to move "head down, facing my spine, chin tucked in". I guess only time will now tell. My next appointment is the 27th @ 10am.

Mar 19, 2008

29w_5d Belly shots

They are a little fuzzy (I had to turn the flash off and that messes with the shutter speed I was told), and keep in mind I started this pregnancy overweight, so it took a while before I started "looking pregnant", so it is sort of exciting to see a REAL baby belly.


The angles are also a little odd, since I was trying to take a side picture of myself in the mirror. Next time I will wait until the kids or hubby are home from work to make them take the pic.


Mar 13, 2008



Doesn't it look like she is pondering something complex?

I had my 29 week appointment today, all is well. The baby is measuring in the 50th percentile, my fluid levels are good, her heart was steady and calm, no contractions, blood pressure and weight were fine (still no weight gain, just a 10 lb loss). She is still stubborn about letting us get good pictures of her, and she is still breech.

Matthew did remarkably well, he played with his cars, and colored in his coloring book. Everyone just adores him at the office, and keep commenting how well he does and how cute he is. I go back again on the 20th for another scan, non-stress test and prenatal.

Mar 4, 2008

Gestational Diabetes Update

Today was my 3D ultrasound and 28 week appointment with my midwife. It was interesting to say the least...

First I had my ultrasound, and I swear little miss is camera shy because in the 15 pictures I got, she resembles a kidney in all but two. She was in the worst position possible and kept her hand in front of her face. With all the room she has she was keeping her legs straight so we could not even get a good peek to make sure she is a girl. For being camera shy, she sure picked the wrong family to be born into! So after 18 frustrating minutes with little or nothing to show for it, I moved to the check in room where they weighed me and took my blood pressure... all was fine there.

My midwife came in and I was full of questions about what the shiny new GD diagnosis means for the next 10-14 weeks of my pregnancy. In a nutshell, other than weekly non stress tests, ultrasounds, and visits with my midwife (and of course monitoring my nutrition at home by checking my blood glucose levels 4-5 times a day) it does not change much. As long as my numbers stay low, I should still be able to have an IV free, continuous monitoring free, completely mobile labor and delivery. She does not see this as a problem for me at all, and I should not need to be induced unless little Sophie starts failing her stress tests.

The frustrating part of this whole thing... I only failed the 1 hour test by 2 freaking points, if I had passed the 1 hour, and kept the same status for the 2 and 3 hour test I would not be considered a gestational diabetic. Figures huh? However this just assures me it is not going to take me eating chicken for breakfast, lunch, and dinner for me to keep my numbers under control, and the risks to my baby are probably pretty minimal.

So Thursday I tour the hospital, Friday I have my GDM class, and then every Thursday until my little cupcake arrives I will be spending an hour or so with my midwife and the staff. Hopefully Matthew does not tire of coloring books, cars, and plastic animals any time soon!

*UPDATE* I have finally condensed and uploaded her 20 minute ultrasound video into a 4 minute video you can find HERE. I literally had to cut out 16 minutes of her being completely uncooperative and have left 4 minutes of her *least* uncooperative moments.

Mar 3, 2008

Bad news

This morning my midwife called me personally to let me know I failed my three hour gestational diabetes test and now have the official diagnoses of Gestational Diabetes. I am so bummed, I can't believe with everything else I have on my plate, that now I have another huge issue to worry about. Seriously guys, I cannot HANDLE any more stress!!!

Tomorrow I will see my midwife for my normal 28 week appointment, and afterwards I get to schedule all my BPP (biophysical profile) ultrasounds which will be 1 week apart until I deliver from what I am gathering, not sure if they will start now, or in 2-4 weeks from now. I will also have to see a dietician and start monitoring my blood glucose levels at home.

Now this is where I am stressed about the whole thing.... I have been trying my hardest to make this pregnancy as minimally medically managed as possible. I want a natural hospital delivery without an epidural or any other analgesic. This also means I want to avoid an IV, continuous fetal monitor, artificial rupture of membranes and most importantly, I want to avoid induction and pitocin.

The more "high risk" this pregnancy gets labeled, the more these wishes seem to be slipping away. Tomorrow I will talk to my midwife about these concerns and hopefully she will give me good news and tell me that as long as I "manage" my GD, I will be low risk and still get to stick with my birth plans, but only time will tell.

Damn I am so bummed.