Aug 26, 2005

Video for Christopher

I have now added a link to my middle child's video. I am in the process of making the baby's.

Click here to watch 'Chris_0002'

Video for Christopher

I have now added a link to my middle child's video. I am in the process of making the baby's.

Click here to watch 'Chris_0002'

Aug 25, 2005

Movie for Austin

Well, I will give Bill some credit.... his designers made a really great program in Windows Movie Maker. So I spent all afternoon scanning in older pictures of Austin and compiling them into a movie. I feel I did pretty good too...

Click here to watch 'Austins-Movie'

Movie for Austin

Well, I will give Bill some credit.... his designers made a really great program in Windows Movie Maker. So I spent all afternoon scanning in older pictures of Austin and compiling them into a movie. I feel I did pretty good too...

Click here to watch 'Austins-Movie'

Aug 21, 2005

Raising Boys

I normally do not pass on emails, but this one I have gotten a few times, and many of them are tried and true.


~~*~*~*~*~*~~



~~*~*~*~*~*~~

Raising Boys


a) For those with no children - this is totally hysterical!
b) For those who already have children past this age, this is
hilarious.
c) For those who have children this age, this is not funny.
d) For those who have children nearing this age, this is a warning.
e) For those who have not yet had children, this is birth control.

The following came from an anonymous Mother in Austin,
Texas...Things I've learned from my Boys (honest and not kidding):

1.) A king size waterbed holds enough water to fill a 2000 sq. ft.
house 4 inches deep.
2.) If you spray hair spray on dust bunnies and run over them with
roller blades, they can ignite.
3.) A 3-year old Boy's voice is louder than 200 adults in a crowded
restaurant.
4.) If you hook a dog leash over a ceiling fan, the motor is not
strong enough to rotate a 42 pound Boy wearing Batman underwear
and a Superman cape. It is strong enough, however, if tied to a
paint can, to spread paint on all four walls of a 20x20 ft. room.
5.) You should not throw baseballs up when the ceiling fan is on.
When using a ceiling fan as a bat, you have to throw the ball up a
few times before you get a hit. A ceiling fan can hit a baseball a
long
way.
6.) The glass in windows (even double-pane) doesn't stop a baseball
hit
by a ceiling fan.
7.) When you hear the toilet flush and the words "uh oh", it's
already
too late.
8.) Brake fluid mixed with Clorox makes smoke, and lots of it.
9.) A six-year old Boy can start a fire with a flint rock even
though a
36-year old Man says they can only do it in the movies.
10.) Certain Lego's will pass through the digestive tract of a 4-year
old Boy.
11.) Play dough and microwave should not be used in the same
sentence.
12.) Super glue is forever.
13.) No matter how much Jell-O you put in a swimming pool you still
can't walk on water.
14.) Pool filters do not like Jell-O.
15.) VCR's do not eject "PB & J" sandwiches even though TV
commercials
show they do.
16.) Garbage bags do not make good parachutes.
17.) Marbles in gas tanks make lots of noise when driving.
18.) You probably DO NOT want to know what that odor is.
19.) Always look in the oven before you turn it on; plastic toys do
not
like ovens.
20.) The fire department in Austin, TX has a 5-minute response time.
21.) The spin cycle on the washing machine does not make earthworms
dizzy.
22.) It will, however, make cats dizzy.
23.) Cats throw up twice their body weight when dizzy.
24.) 80% of Men who read this will try mixing the Clorox and brake
fluid.
25.) Women will pass this on to almost all of their friends, with or
without kids.

Raising Boys

I normally do not pass on emails, but this one I have gotten a few times, and many of them are tried and true.


~~*~*~*~*~*~~



~~*~*~*~*~*~~

Raising Boys


a) For those with no children - this is totally hysterical!
b) For those who already have children past this age, this is
hilarious.
c) For those who have children this age, this is not funny.
d) For those who have children nearing this age, this is a warning.
e) For those who have not yet had children, this is birth control.

The following came from an anonymous Mother in Austin,
Texas...Things I've learned from my Boys (honest and not kidding):

1.) A king size waterbed holds enough water to fill a 2000 sq. ft.
house 4 inches deep.
2.) If you spray hair spray on dust bunnies and run over them with
roller blades, they can ignite.
3.) A 3-year old Boy's voice is louder than 200 adults in a crowded
restaurant.
4.) If you hook a dog leash over a ceiling fan, the motor is not
strong enough to rotate a 42 pound Boy wearing Batman underwear
and a Superman cape. It is strong enough, however, if tied to a
paint can, to spread paint on all four walls of a 20x20 ft. room.
5.) You should not throw baseballs up when the ceiling fan is on.
When using a ceiling fan as a bat, you have to throw the ball up a
few times before you get a hit. A ceiling fan can hit a baseball a
long
way.
6.) The glass in windows (even double-pane) doesn't stop a baseball
hit
by a ceiling fan.
7.) When you hear the toilet flush and the words "uh oh", it's
already
too late.
8.) Brake fluid mixed with Clorox makes smoke, and lots of it.
9.) A six-year old Boy can start a fire with a flint rock even
though a
36-year old Man says they can only do it in the movies.
10.) Certain Lego's will pass through the digestive tract of a 4-year
old Boy.
11.) Play dough and microwave should not be used in the same
sentence.
12.) Super glue is forever.
13.) No matter how much Jell-O you put in a swimming pool you still
can't walk on water.
14.) Pool filters do not like Jell-O.
15.) VCR's do not eject "PB & J" sandwiches even though TV
commercials
show they do.
16.) Garbage bags do not make good parachutes.
17.) Marbles in gas tanks make lots of noise when driving.
18.) You probably DO NOT want to know what that odor is.
19.) Always look in the oven before you turn it on; plastic toys do
not
like ovens.
20.) The fire department in Austin, TX has a 5-minute response time.
21.) The spin cycle on the washing machine does not make earthworms
dizzy.
22.) It will, however, make cats dizzy.
23.) Cats throw up twice their body weight when dizzy.
24.) 80% of Men who read this will try mixing the Clorox and brake
fluid.
25.) Women will pass this on to almost all of their friends, with or
without kids.

Aug 19, 2005

12 hour nights

So, I started a job last week. I work with the elderly as a companion and home helper. I work 12 hours at a time; nights. I get to sleep when the client sleeps, so IF the client sleeps its a sinch..... not everyone sleeps! LOL

I think the hardest thing about working, is finding time to pump milk for Matthew. Like I said, not everyone sleeps, and when I only take breaks when my client is sleeping, that means finding time to pump is hard.

My family, bless their hearts, are taking well to the change. My older boys say "see you after school tomorrow". Bobby misses having me sleeping next to him, but he's coping quite well.... now Matthew, THAT is a different story.... I guess last night was a rough night for him. He was up and down all night long.... and to top it off, Matthew is teething!

Needless to say...mommy is tired, daddy is tired, baby is tired, and the older two boys are unphased!

Today when I came home, Matthew cuddled me so close...I almost started crying...I miss my little bald bunny so much!!

Here is a picture of the Orajel experience, needless to say, he does not care for it!

12 hour nights

So, I started a job last week. I work with the elderly as a companion and home helper. I work 12 hours at a time; nights. I get to sleep when the client sleeps, so IF the client sleeps its a sinch..... not everyone sleeps! LOL

I think the hardest thing about working, is finding time to pump milk for Matthew. Like I said, not everyone sleeps, and when I only take breaks when my client is sleeping, that means finding time to pump is hard.

My family, bless their hearts, are taking well to the change. My older boys say "see you after school tomorrow". Bobby misses having me sleeping next to him, but he's coping quite well.... now Matthew, THAT is a different story.... I guess last night was a rough night for him. He was up and down all night long.... and to top it off, Matthew is teething!

Needless to say...mommy is tired, daddy is tired, baby is tired, and the older two boys are unphased!

Today when I came home, Matthew cuddled me so close...I almost started crying...I miss my little bald bunny so much!!

Here is a picture of the Orajel experience, needless to say, he does not care for it!

Aug 13, 2005

Gina dared me!!

Ok Gina, this is for you. You DARED me to write 100 things about myself...so here goes.

1. My name is Heather
2. I was born in Havre, Montana
3. I was born on St Patrick's Day
4. I am 26 years old
5. I have been married 8 years to Bobby
6. I have three children
7. My oldest is Bobby's from a previous relationship
8. I love him like my own
9. I was 20 when he came to live with me
10. I had my second son when I was 18
11. I had my third son 7 years later
12. I turned 26 one week after he was born
13. I insisted that our third son be named after my dad and grandpa
14. I am my dad's only biological child
15. I am the youngest of three girls
16. My sisters are 8 and 9 years older than me
17. I moved to Spokane Wa when I was 1 years old.
18. I was in Washington when Mount St Helen's erupted in 1980
19. I have a jar of ash from the eruption
20. I went to the same elementary school from Kindergarten to 6th grade
21. I was one of only three kids who did not move in elementary school
22. I was in gifted classes in Junior High
23. I started college when I was 16
24. I moved away from home when I was 17
25. I dropped out and got my GED instead
26. I got married at 18
27. I moved to Texas when my husband graduated Basic Training and AIT
28. I am an Army wife
29. I waited for my husband 25.5 months while he was in Korea and Iraq
30. I flew over to Korea to visit him
31. I moved to Ft Carson, Colorado in March 2003
32. I became a homeowner in July 2004
33. I am a CNA
34. I am a college Sophomore
35. My first major was Computer Science
36. I changed my major to nursing because I do not have patience for stupid people
37. I love helping people
38. I love reading, writing, and computers
39. My pet peeves are ignorance, small mindedness, and bad parents
40. I will breastfeed my baby longer than a year
41. I wear my baby in a sling
42. I cloth diaper
43. I make my own baby food
44. I co-slept with my baby for three months, until he preferred his crib
45. I co-sleep from his 5am feeding until morning
46. I supplement my older children with after school tutoring
47. I have and honor roll student and an advanced learner
48. My favorite color is purple
49. I painted the children's room and the nursery green
50. I love asian art work
51. I would love to travel the world some day
52. I want to take my children to Korea
53. I have been to Hawaii twice
54. I have been to Mexico twice
55. I worked at a daycare when I was 16
56. I was a telemarketer when I was 17
57. I saw the Grateful Dead in '95
58. My parents took me
59. I got two t-shirts
60. I still wear the tye dyed tee
61. I used to think my parents were really Janis Joplin and Jimi Hendrix
62. I have dark blonde hair and blue eyes
63. I wasn't born yet when they died
64. I had two imaginary friends when I was little
65. One was a baby, the other was a cat named "Mr. Meemer"
66. I heard my dad on the phone advising a client about a misdemeanor when I named it
67. I went to Lollapalooza with my two best friends in 1996
68. We slept in a station wagon at a rest stop because we were too tired to drive
69. I grew up on the back of a Harley Davidson
70. I went on a 2,000 mile Harley ride when I was 13
71. In summer of 2002 I spent 3 weeks camping on the Oregon Coast with my husband and two sons
72. I convinced the park ranger to let us sleep in a tepee for free
73. I am an animal lover and have had 13 animals at one time
74. I breed chinchillas; I have 5
75. I have two dogs, a yellow lab and a golden retriever
76. I have three cats
77. I used to have pet rats and pet ferrets
78. I was interviewed for a feature on the evening news this year
79. This is the year I was born, '79
80. My favorite Aunt and my son share a birthday; I share a birthday with her son
81. I am a Pisces and my sign is fitting
82. My favorite car is my Honda Civic; I bought it in 2003 with 8 miles on it
83. I now drive a minivan and my husband drives my car
84. I bought him a Ford Explorer for Valentines day 2004
85. I haggled it down from $12995 to $6995, my husband sold it to buy me a minivan when we learned we were expecting
86. I struggled with infertility for 6 years
87. I have PCOS
88. I had 8 failed cycles on Clomid in 2001
89. I got pregnant after stopping the birth control pills I was on the entire time my husband was overseas
90. I recently drove almost 3,000 miles across the country alone with my 9 year old, 7 year old, and 4 month old sons
91. I brought my step son into my home when he was 3 1/2 and loved him as my own
92. I brought him back him back up to grade level after years of neglect caused him to be behind
93. I have been the primary caretaker of him for almost 6 years, even while his dad was overseas
94. I want more than anything to be able to adopt him
95. I enjoy writing accounting spreadsheets in Excel
96. I collect Bearfoots and gargoyles
97. And I am always barefoot myself
98. I am an Ani Difranco fan
99. I also love classic rock, my favorite group is Led Zeppelin
100. I am a recovering pacifier addict!

Ok, your turn!!!

Gina dared me!!

Ok Gina, this is for you. You DARED me to write 100 things about myself...so here goes.

1. My name is Heather
2. I was born in Havre, Montana
3. I was born on St Patrick's Day
4. I am 26 years old
5. I have been married 8 years to Bobby
6. I have three children
7. My oldest is Bobby's from a previous relationship
8. I love him like my own
9. I was 20 when he came to live with me
10. I had my second son when I was 18
11. I had my third son 7 years later
12. I turned 26 one week after he was born
13. I insisted that our third son be named after my dad and grandpa
14. I am my dad's only biological child
15. I am the youngest of three girls
16. My sisters are 8 and 9 years older than me
17. I moved to Spokane Wa when I was 1 years old.
18. I was in Washington when Mount St Helens erupted in 1980
19. I have a jar of ash from the erruption
20. I went to the same elementry school from Kindergarten to 6th grade
21. I was one of only three kids who did not move in elementry school
22. I was in gifted classes in Junior High
23. I started college when I was 16
24. I moved away from home when I was 17
25. I dropped out and got my GED instead
26. I got married at 18
27. I moved to Texas when my husband graduated Basic Training and AIT
28. I am an Army wife
29. I waited for my husband 25.5 months while he was in Korea and Iraq
30. I flew over to Korea to visit him
31. I moved to Ft Carson, Colorado in March 2003
32. I became a homeowner in July 2004
33. I am a CNA
34. I am a college Sophmore
35. My first major was Computer Science
36. I changed my major to nursing because I do not have patience for stupid people
37. I love helping people
38. I love reading, writing, and computers
39. My pet peves are ignorance, small mindedness, and bad parents
40. I will breastfeed my baby longer than a year
41. I wear my baby in a sling
42. I cloth diaper
43. I make my own baby food
44. I co-slept with my baby for three months, until he prefered his crib
45. I co-sleep from his 5am feeding until morning
46. I suppliment my older children with after school tutoring
47. I have and honor roll student and an advanced learner
48. My favorite color is purple
49. I paintd the children's room and the nursery green
50. I love asian art work
51. I would love to travel the world some day
52. I want to take my children to Korea
53. I have been to Hawaii twice
54. I have been to Mexico twice
55. I worked at a daycare when I was 16
56. I was a telemarketer when I was 17
57. I saw the Grateful Dead in '95
58. My parents took me
59. I got two t-shirts
60. I still wear the tye dyed tee
61. I used to think my parents were really Janis Joplin and Jimi Hendrix
62. I have dark blonde hair and blue eyes
63. I wasn't born yet when they died
64. I had two imaginary friends when I was little
65. One was a baby, the other was a cat named "Mr. Meemer"
66. I heard my dad on the phone advising a client about a misdemeanor when I named it
67. I went to Lollapalooza with my two best friends in 1996
68. We slept in a station wagon at a rest stop because we were too tired to drive
69. I grew up on the back of a Harley Davidson
70. I went on a 2,000 mile Harley ride when I was 13
71. In summer of 2002 I spent 3 weeks camping on the Oregon Coast with my husband and two sons
72. I convinced the park ranger to let us sleep in a teepee for free
73. I am an animal lover and have had 13 animals at one time
74. I breed chinchillas; I have 5
75. I have two dogs, a yellow lab and a golden retriever
76. I have three cats
77. I used to have pet rats and pet ferrets
78. I was interviewed for a feature on the evening news this year
79. This is the year I was born, '79
80. My favorite Aunt and my son share a birthday; I share a birthday with her son
81. I am a pisces and my sign is fitting
82. My favorite car is my Honda Civic; I bought it in 2003 with 8 miles on it
83. I now drive a minivan and my husband drives my car
84. I bought him a Ford Explorer for Valentines day 2004
85. I haggled it down from $12995 to $6995, my husband sold it to buy me a minivan when we learned we were expecting
86. I struggled with infertility for 6 years
87. I have PCOS
88. I had 8 failed cycles on Clomid in 2001
89. I got pregnant after stopping the birth control pills I was on the entire time my husband was overseas
90. I recently drove almost 3,000 miles across the country alone with my 9 year old, 7 year old, and 4 month old sons
91. I brought my step son into my home when he was 3 1/2 and loved him as my own
92. I brought him back him back up to grade level after years of neglect caused him to be behind
93. I have been the primary caretaker of him for almost 6 years, even while his dad was overseas
94. I want more than anything to be able to adopt him
95. I enjoy writing accounting spreadsheets in Excel
96. I collect Bearfoots and gargoyles
97. And I am always bearfoot myself
98. I am an Ani Difranco fan
99. I also love classic rock, my favorite group is Led Zeppelin
100. I am a recovering pacifier addict!

Ok, your turn!!!

Aug 12, 2005

Matchbox Cars, Yu-Gi-Oh Cards, Video Games and Mud

Boys are unusual creatures... they smell funny, they could care less about leaving a trail of dirt behind them, and they are just plain gross! But I love them.

I have testosterone dripping from every surface of my home, it's everywhere! I am the mom of three, yes three boys. Before you ask, I will answer my FAQ.

Yes, three boys. Don't you think if my third was a girl I would be holding a baby in a pink dress with mountains and mountains of lace?
Yes, they are all my boys.
No, I am not going to try again for a girl.
Yes, they can be a handful, but show me three kids who aren't?
No, I am not crazy. Though some days I swear I am.
Anything else? I need to go, I have to finish getting my groceries, these guys are not cheap to feed and they are only 7 and 9. The baby doesn't count yet, because he is still my little parasite.

Some casual observations about my home.

In my house you will have to change the channel from Justice League or Teen Titans to watch HGTV or Dr. Phil, but don't get up to pee or you will lose the TV.

Finding the remote is like finding Waldo in the "Where's Waldo?" books.

My boys can shoot a quarter with a beebee gun from 20 feet away, but they cannot pee in the toilet without hitting the seat, floor, or even the wall.

There is always a yellow ring around the toilet no matter how often I clean them. And don't sit down blindly, you are likely to fall in.

If you want some quiet time, bring ear plugs.

A house full of boys makes great birth control.

You will NEVER be bored in my house.

Nurses at the ER have NOT seen everything, we will always show them something new.

My kids say the most off the wall, amusing, and witty things.

Scars are cool, just ask my middle son.

Sleep is for the weak.

Seriously, can you think of anything more fun than a house full of boys??

Matchbox Cars, Yu-Gi-Oh Cards, Video Games and Mud

Boys are unusual creatures... they smell funny, they could care less about leaving a trail of dirt behind them, and they are just plain gross! But I love them.

I have testosterone dripping from every surface of my home, it's everywhere! I am the mom of three, yes three boys. Before you ask, I will answer my FAQ.

Yes, three boys. Don't you think if my third was a girl I would be holding a baby in a pink dress with mountains and mountains of lace?
Yes, they are all my boys.
No, I am not going to try again for a girl.
Yes, they can be a handful, but show me three kids who aren't?
No, I am not crazy. Though some days I swear I am.
Anything else? I need to go, I have to finish getting my groceries, these guys are not cheap to feed and they are only 7 and 9. The baby doesn't count yet, because he is still my little parasite.

Some casual observations about my home.

In my house you will have to change the channel from Justice League or Teen Titans to watch HGTV or Dr. Phil, but don't get up to pee or you will lose the TV.

Finding the remote is like finding Waldo in the "Where's Waldo?" books.

My boys can shoot a quarter with a beebee gun from 20 feet away, but they cannot pee in the toilet without hitting the seat, floor, or even the wall.

There is always a yellow ring around the toilet no matter how often I clean them. And don't sit down blindly, you are likely to fall in.

If you want some quiet time, bring ear plugs.

A house full of boys makes great birth control.

You will NEVER be bored in my house.

Nurses at the ER have NOT seen everything, we will always show them something new.

My kids say the most off the wall, amusing, and witty things.

Scars are cool, just ask my middle son.

Sleep is for the weak.

Seriously, can you think of anything more fun than a house full of boys??

Aug 7, 2005

Confessions of a Binky Obsession

I wrote this story when Matthew was 2 months old and wanted to send a little update.

~~~Origional Post~~~
Well, I have lived in denial now for almost 2 months....and I think its time I make a confession to all of you. I mean I have known many of you great ladies for almost a year, and I think I can let you all know the real me without judgment.... at least I hope I can.
What I am about to tell you may frighten you, and it may make some of you pity me, and then there will be the select few of you who may shed a tear, and silently nod their heads and sympathize, for they know what I am going through.
Though it’s not pretty, I feel like I must tell you all.... I am a binky addict. Wow, just saying it out loud seems to lift a little bit of weight off my shoulders. Let me tell you the story of how I came to face my addiction:
It all started with a coupon book from Gerber, they had the nerve to send me a $1.00 off coupon for pacifiers, KNOWING I was teetering on the edge of an obsession. My palms were sweaty and my knees were week as I slipped the coupon into my purse, knowing we were heading to Wal-Mart soon. I was about to get my fix.
I scan the isle for pretty red white and blue (patriotic, my civil tribute to my country) and almost burst into tears when I found they only had size 1, which is 7+ months. There, under the 0-6 month Gerber Nuk display, is an empty hook with a picture telling the clerks to re-order... I think it was there just to taunt me. So I do what any normal mom would do (I hope); I bought a pair of light green Mam's with a leash included, size newborn.
So today, I find myself back at Wal-Mart again, this time the one at the South end of town, instead of the one on the West side. Today I am looking for lawn seed and kitty litter, instead of the birthday gifts we purchased on Sunday. I find myself being sucked into the void, which is the baby section, and right to the pacifier isle. I told myself I was NOT going to buy, I even picked up, and put down a new pacifier that has teething nubs on it, telling myself I did not want my son to chew on a pacifier nipple, as this might encourage chewing on MY nipple. And there they were, at the top of the display.... red white and blue, size newborn Nuk's. I tried to convince myself that they were unnecessary, and too expensive, but the coupon was burning a hole in my pocket, and I finally gave in.
Before I left I took one last look back....and it was too late. Playtex now makes a pacifier, and the box say dentists designed it.... ooooh! Hey, and a leash with a little sail boat on it, too cute! And since I am here I might as well get the pacifiers with the nubs. Finally, I convince myself its time to move on and I go to the underclothes and start looking at onsies. Shuddering at the thought of a teething baby chomping down at my nipples because of his teething pacifier...I put it back again....besides, its for 3+ months and the shield is MUCH too big for my tiny little boy.
On the way to the garden center I pass by the baby section of the pharmacy... Matthew is getting his shots on Wednesday; I better pick up some infant Tylenol. I look over at the pacifier thermometer and medicine dispensers....tempting, but I know better, they are crap....and not very cute.
Around 3pm, I get home and start unpacking all the stuff I bought.... 4 new pacifiers and a leash. My middle son, Christopher, says to me "More pacifiers Mommy? How many does Matthew have?" Hmmm, good question. I better count them all and see; you know to file in the Home Insurance file as part of my home inventory of valuables. Christopher and I make it a game, like an Easter egg hunt. We check swings, the bouncy, the bassinet, changing table, crib, out in the van... and the pile of binkies grow. Seven... eight....nine.... wow, nine. I start thinking, where is the red one, and the other blue one? We have to find those, because he has 11, I just know it. Then out of the corner of my eye, I see a leash on his little blanket, and to my discovery I find #13.
When my husband came home, I sheepishly confessed I had a problem. I asked him how many pacifiers he thought we had. He corrected me, replacing the “me” part of my statement with “you”. His guess was 15, oh wow, 15?? What does he think I am; a nut? I told him he had WAY over estimated my addiction and I blushed a bit when I admitted he was only off by 2. Matthew then started to fuss so I ran to my hoard and grabbed him one of the new orthodontic Playtex binkies. My husband just sighed and said he could not believe me. When I asked him why he was rolling his eyes at me, he pointed out that I had coordinated the binky with his outfit [see picture below]. I just had to share my madness with you, so I took a picture and went downstairs to upload the photos, and to my amazement (and horror) what should I find in his portable swing? #14
Hi, my name is Heather... and I am addicted to binkies.

Now, here is the TRULY sad part. Matthew does not even really care that much for binkies.... he is a thumb sucker.




Update-
I am doing well, I have faced the reality that my youngest son will not take a binky as is older brother did. Matthew is now 5 months old; and I have been clean and binky free for 2 months now. I admit, I did fall off the wagon when Matthew was 3 months... at Babies R Us they had a double pack of Nuk's in the same John Lennon "Imagine" theme as his nursery.. HOW can you resist that?? They also had a coordinating leash. But those were the last two I PURCHASED. The green and white one I got after the "Imagine" binkies came free from Motherhood in the mall, so they are to blame for #16, or do I have #17 now? I will admit all 17ish are still around here, somewhere, as Matthew likes to play with them.

Hey, I am getting better!!

Confessions of a Binky Obsession

I wrote this story when Matthew was 2 months old and wanted to send a little update.

~~~Origional Post~~~
Well, I have lived in denial now for almost 2 months....and I think its time I make a confession to all of you. I mean I have known many of you great ladies for almost a year, and I think I can let you all know the real me without judgment.... at least I hope I can.
What I am about to tell you may frighten you, and it may make some of you pity me, and then there will be the select few of you who may shed a tear, and silently nod their heads and sympathize, for they know what I am going through.
Though it’s not pretty, I feel like I must tell you all.... I am a binky addict. Wow, just saying it out loud seems to lift a little bit of weight off my shoulders. Let me tell you the story of how I came to face my addiction:
It all started with a coupon book from Gerber, they had the nerve to send me a $1.00 off coupon for pacifiers, KNOWING I was teetering on the edge of an obsession. My palms were sweaty and my knees were week as I slipped the coupon into my purse, knowing we were heading to Wal-Mart soon. I was about to get my fix.
I scan the isle for pretty red white and blue (patriotic, my civil tribute to my country) and almost burst into tears when I found they only had size 1, which is 7+ months. There, under the 0-6 month Gerber Nuk display, is an empty hook with a picture telling the clerks to re-order... I think it was there just to taunt me. So I do what any normal mom would do (I hope); I bought a pair of light green Mam's with a leash included, size newborn.
So today, I find myself back at Wal-Mart again, this time the one at the South end of town, instead of the one on the West side. Today I am looking for lawn seed and kitty litter, instead of the birthday gifts we purchased on Sunday. I find myself being sucked into the void, which is the baby section, and right to the pacifier isle. I told myself I was NOT going to buy, I even picked up, and put down a new pacifier that has teething nubs on it, telling myself I did not want my son to chew on a pacifier nipple, as this might encourage chewing on MY nipple. And there they were, at the top of the display.... red white and blue, size newborn Nuk's. I tried to convince myself that they were unnecessary, and too expensive, but the coupon was burning a hole in my pocket, and I finally gave in.
Before I left I took one last look back....and it was too late. Playtex now makes a pacifier, and the box say dentists designed it.... ooooh! Hey, and a leash with a little sail boat on it, too cute! And since I am here I might as well get the pacifiers with the nubs. Finally, I convince myself its time to move on and I go to the underclothes and start looking at onsies. Shuddering at the thought of a teething baby chomping down at my nipples because of his teething pacifier...I put it back again....besides, its for 3+ months and the shield is MUCH too big for my tiny little boy.
On the way to the garden center I pass by the baby section of the pharmacy... Matthew is getting his shots on Wednesday; I better pick up some infant Tylenol. I look over at the pacifier thermometer and medicine dispensers....tempting, but I know better, they are crap....and not very cute.
Around 3pm, I get home and start unpacking all the stuff I bought.... 4 new pacifiers and a leash. My middle son, Christopher, says to me "More pacifiers Mommy? How many does Matthew have?" Hmmm, good question. I better count them all and see; you know to file in the Home Insurance file as part of my home inventory of valuables. Christopher and I make it a game, like an Easter egg hunt. We check swings, the bouncy, the bassinet, changing table, crib, out in the van... and the pile of binkies grow. Seven... eight....nine.... wow, nine. I start thinking, where is the red one, and the other blue one? We have to find those, because he has 11, I just know it. Then out of the corner of my eye, I see a leash on his little blanket, and to my discovery I find #13.
When my husband came home, I sheepishly confessed I had a problem. I asked him how many pacifiers he thought we had. He corrected me, replacing the “me” part of my statement with “you”. His guess was 15, oh wow, 15?? What does he think I am; a nut? I told him he had WAY over estimated my addiction and I blushed a bit when I admitted he was only off by 2. Matthew then started to fuss so I ran to my hoard and grabbed him one of the new orthodontic Playtex binkies. My husband just sighed and said he could not believe me. When I asked him why he was rolling his eyes at me, he pointed out that I had coordinated the binky with his outfit [see picture below]. I just had to share my madness with you, so I took a picture and went downstairs to upload the photos, and to my amazement (and horror) what should I find in his portable swing? #14
Hi, my name is Heather... and I am addicted to binkies.

Now, here is the TRULY sad part. Matthew does not even really care that much for binkies.... he is a thumb sucker.




Update-
I am doing well, I have faced the reality that my youngest son will not take a binky as is older brother did. Matthew is now 5 months old; and I have been clean and binky free for 2 months now. I admit, I did fall off the wagon when Matthew was 3 months... at Babies R Us they had a double pack of Nuk's in the same John Lennon "Imagine" theme as his nursery.. HOW can you resist that?? They also had a coordinating leash. But those were the last two I PURCHASED. The green and white one I got after the "Imagine" binkies came free from Motherhood in the mall, so they are to blame for #16, or do I have #17 now? I will admit all 17ish are still around here, somewhere, as Matthew likes to play with them.

Hey, I am getting better!!

Aug 3, 2005

Please Excuse the Mess

Well, I had a nice long post and then poof, spell check made it go away.

I am Heather, and this is my blog, a way to vent, rant, and just do what makes me feel good....write.

I just had my 8th anniversary, pretty neat considering I am 26. My husband is Bobby, he's a Soldier in the US Army.... for now... but that is another post. We have been through so much, good and bad. We dealt with an unplanned teenage pregnancy, many years of separation due to his military career, a custody issue, blending a family, moving, moving some more, YEARS in infertility, some difficult times in our marriage, more great years, buying a house, and soon a career change.

Together we have three kids, well two if you count "biology", but biology is second to what the heart thinks. My oldest is Austin, he was born from my heart. Bobby has full custody of his son, kudos to you daddy! Austin is the sweetest boy you will ever meet, but don't let your guard down, he's brilliant too and has his naughty side (show me a child who doesn't). Austin has made the most of his life going from a very hurt and angry child, to now a well adjusted happy child. As much as I hate to say it, the change happened after his bio mom, or BM, decided to step out of his life completely. I am in no way saying kids do better without their bio parents, but sometimes you have to stand back and say "Am I helping this child, or hurting them"?

Our middle child is Christopher, and what a character he is. He's too smart for his own good, and lately his mouth is just as smart as his brain. He was our weather-man last Halloween, he never fails to amaze you. He's one of those kids where you say to yourself "did he just SAY that"? Christopher is VERY dramatic however, you can make him cry at the drop of a hat.

Then there is the baby, Matthew, he was our 6 years in the making baby. I knew I wanted another baby, but what I did not know is that I wanted another SON. Ask me a year ago, when I was newly pregnant if I wanted a son or daughter, I would tell you all I wanted was a healthy baby.... but inside I was screaming "A DAUGHTER!!! I WANT A GIRL!!!!!!" I know better now, Matthew is just too cool of a baby. Easy tempered, happy, and cuddly. He is my 100% breastfed, cloth diapered, sling riding, low maintenance boy.

Like I mentioned, Bobby is in the Army, he has been in almost 8 years and is now in the process of a medical discharge. He had two failed shoulder surgeries following an injury in Iraq (non-combat related). He loves computers, fantasy books, video games, and cartoons. He is a devoted daddy and is an inspiration.

I am a CNA, nursing student, and most importantly, a mom. I love computers, writing, reading, and my pets (2 dogs, 3 cats, and 5 chinchillas). Family is my life and without them, I would have nothing. I really am enjoying home ownership and spend a lot of time watching HGTV for decorating ideas and my house is about 50% done outside, and 75% done inside.

Please Excuse the Mess

Well, I had a nice long post and then poof, spell check made it go away.

I am Heather, and this is my blog, a way to vent, rant, and just do what makes me feel good....write.

I just had my 8th anniversary, pretty neat considering I am 26. My husband is Bobby, he's a Soldier in the US Army.... for now... but that is another post. We have been through so much, good and bad. We dealt with an unplanned teenage pregnancy, many years of separation due to his military career, a custody issue, blending a family, moving, moving some more, YEARS in infertility, some difficult times in our marriage, more great years, buying a house, and soon a career change.

Together we have three kids, well two if you count "biology", but biology is second to what the heart thinks. My oldest is Austin, he was born from my heart. Bobby has full custody of his son, kudos to you daddy! Austin is the sweetest boy you will ever meet, but don't let your guard down, he's brilliant too and has his naughty side (show me a child who doesn't). Austin has made the most of his life going from a very hurt and angry child, to now a well adjusted happy child. As much as I hate to say it, the change happened after his bio mom, or BM, decided to step out of his life completely. I am in no way saying kids do better without their bio parents, but sometimes you have to stand back and say "Am I helping this child, or hurting them"?

Our middle child is Christopher, and what a character he is. He's too smart for his own good, and lately his mouth is just as smart as his brain. He was our weather-man last Halloween, he never fails to amaze you. He's one of those kids where you say to yourself "did he just SAY that"? Christopher is VERY dramatic however, you can make him cry at the drop of a hat.

Then there is the baby, Matthew, he was our 6 years in the making baby. I knew I wanted another baby, but what I did not know is that I wanted another SON. Ask me a year ago, when I was newly pregnant if I wanted a son or daughter, I would tell you all I wanted was a healthy baby.... but inside I was screaming "A DAUGHTER!!! I WANT A GIRL!!!!!!" I know better now, Matthew is just too cool of a baby. Easy tempered, happy, and cuddly. He is my 100% breastfed, cloth diapered, sling riding, low maintenance boy.

Like I mentioned, Bobby is in the Army, he has been in almost 8 years and is now in the process of a medical discharge. He had two failed shoulder surgeries following an injury in Iraq (non-combat related). He loves computers, fantasy books, video games, and cartoons. He is a devoted daddy and is an inspiration.

I am a CNA, nursing student, and most importantly, a mom. I love computers, writing, reading, and my pets (2 dogs, 3 cats, and 5 chinchillas). Family is my life and without them, I would have nothing. I really am enjoying home ownership and spend a lot of time watching HGTV for decorating ideas and my house is about 50% done outside, and 75% done inside.